Such COMPLICATED Things

I don't know when nor where it's started,
but I don't have any damn clue WHY it should be started
when people started ask, "Which one do you like? that guy over there?"
or since when friends started their curiosity, do I have someone to like?
and all the answers I get are, "Because you're a teenager." or "Because you're a normal girl."

do all normal girls should feel the curiosity, jealousy, or even pain towards a specific guy in their life?
well, everybody says so....
but it's all never decrease my confusions, or those "WHY"s questions
of feelings which are intermingled in my head.

I grow up every second,
and I start asking, Why a guy and a girl in such a very wonderful friendship,
should be interfered by another strange feeling called L-O-V-E?

I never want to feel this complicated feeling.
why it can't be last as just a good friendship?
why somehow appear a confusing noun called 'relationship'?

I hate those stuffs.
cause I feel dizzy every second I think about it.
why jealousy separates friends?
why...
those whys are always in unlimited stock.

I hate confusing things.
do all couples should always waste time together?
do the girls should not be too close to another guy?
do the guys should get pissed if another guy attract their girls?
so, WHY??

why if I seldom talk to 'him', my friends look at me in strange way?
why when sometimes I do things together with 'him', everybody seems so happy?
then they're said, "Hey, happy couple, why don't you do such things like that everyday??"
so why should I?
because of that f***in' 'relationship?

I'm getting sick of it.
I don't like to be tied by an invisible rope.

what is relationship?
you don't even know, whether he'll be your husband or not, right?
and if I say this, everybody will say, "You're like my mother, how old are you?"
or, "Future is not now, pal! just have fun!" with, mocking voice.
Future is not now but who else will face it? who else will prepare, if not our selves?
so what's the purpose of having a relationship?
it's just a status. status of what??

ARGH.
should I even think about these things???
I still have hundreds goals to reached.
and actually, I'm just wasting times, think about this endless confusions.

but if you have any answer or critique, tell me.